'Whatever' is a good title

               

'Whatever' is a good title Discovered that my attitude to things is conflicted.  Hard to explain.  Kind of like thinking -- in abstract terms -- maybe you're bent, but discovering in concrete terms you're maybe rather straight. Unpleasant feelings of dissonance. Reluctance to examine why. Wondering if I am capable of believing in anything at all.  To be honest, I don't think I have any particularly deep or abiding beliefs.  Perhaps I have just have tendencies that I rarely examine. The devotion to beliefs and the culture of causes tends to irritate me, because I see either ignorance or self interest in the pursuit of one or the other. Attitudes, ideas, thoughts or beliefs that reside in me are contradictory and unorthodox. No point struggling against that.   An easy feeling comes over me when I accept that I am what I am and conclude that it's enough.